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07 August 2005

my internal incinerator

sarah was leaving today. we checked out of our hotel at noon and took a taxi to the nearest metro stop, malostranska, at the bottom of the hill. the ride cost just over 100kc (4 usd); had we realized the ride was so inexpensive we would most likely have taken a taxi _up_ the hill the day before. well, sarah would have tried to convince me it was the right decision, which it would have been, and i would have stubbornly wanted to walk. taxi -> metro -> bus. we arrived at the airport at 1245. sarah checked in and dropped her bag off. we spent the next couple hours hanging out in the airport and talking. then she was gone and i was by myself. myself.

my internal incinerator was no longer burning inside. once an inferno intense devouring every new experience into its emptiness was now just a faintly flickering flame. i needed some extended nothing time to rebuild the burning inside. alone time which couldn't be found in a hostel; i'd need to find an apartment. i would need to return to a nothing new resting repetion; every day like the one before just for a little while.

posted by paul on Sun 07 Aug 2005 at 00:00:00 est (-05:00)


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