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28 January 2007

filling in my missing parts

a metal-induced frenzy on friday night has left me with a broken finger, a busted blue and bloody lip [apologies to kim onto whom some of my blood may have gushed], a piercing pain in my jaw which has disabled clenches, a torn muscle in my chest which prevents the utilization of the full capacity of my lungs, bruised knees and elbows, and countless unpinpointable pains. [i'm fine, mom. stop worrying.] as i've already stated, injuries resulting from mind controlling music are easily swallowed. this show filled me with something that has been missing for a while (which is nice considering my current mission is filling in my missing parts).

oh they say that it's over
and it just had to be
oh they say that it's over
we're lost children of the sea

: children of the sea, black sabbath

i haven't heard back regarding my volunteering email, but i'm sure i will and i'm still happy because of it.

lastly, i transported justice to josh and emily's where at some point i will undertake the dreaded stator replacement. thanks much to neal david for allowing the use of his truck and to josh and emily for storing my incapacitated motorcycle at their place. really appreciate it guys.

hi sv.

posted by paul at Sun 28 Jan 2007 at 23:06:50 EST (-05:00) | comments (4)

24 January 2007

the starting makes me

i have started. i've sent an email volunteering my computer skills to a social service and arts organization in boston. i have stepped in the way of the droning and started and just the starting makes me happy.

posted by paul at Wed 24 Jan 2007 at 23:03:33 EST (-05:00) | comments (0)

how bright it will become


i am droning, not so disconsolate, not so distressed, but it seems this droning could continue for some time because nothing is getting in its way. _i_ am not getting in its way. and i know time is valuable, too valuable for this droning. so i'm going to stop it. have you heard me? i am going to stop it.

it is this time of night that songs can get into my eyes. and it seems like i'm just sitting here while there is some good i should be doing on this earth.

on the turning away
from the pale and downtrodden
and the words they say
which we won't understand
don't accept that what's happening
is just a case of others' suffering
or you'll find that you're joining in
the turning away

: on the turning away, pink floyd

i'm going to start small, but i'm going to start.

separately, there is a sparkling light in front of me. i wonder how bright it will become.

posted by paul at Wed 24 Jan 2007 at 04:26:23 EST (-05:00) | comments (2)

18 January 2007

five minutes to midnight

the doomsday clock now reads five minutes to midnight.

"The world stands at the brink of a second nuclear age. The United States and Russia remain ready to stage a nuclear attack within minutes, North Korea conducts a nuclear test, and many in the international community worry that Iran plans to acquire the Bomb. Climate change also presents a dire challenge to humanity. Damage to ecosystems is already taking place; flooding, destructive storms, increased drought, and polar ice melt are causing loss of life and property." : thebulletin.org

i bought a box of forty security envelopes six days ago. i think that should get me through, don't you? i have this idea about driving to california in february.

bromide \BROH-myd\, noun: a dull person with conventional thoughts.

posted by paul at Thu 18 Jan 2007 at 05:57:51 EST (-05:00) | comments (1)

11 January 2007

the shell was crushing you

one song has controlled me for four days and its definitely worth mentioning that i've been more myself than ever for these days.

it was the height i grew
the weight the shell was crushing you
i've been around a few
tell me what you saw
i'll tell you what to

: gold lion, yeah yeah yeahs

it would take me several hours to write a few sentences about how certain music is able to control me at the deepest levels. someday maybe i'll write those sentences.

posted by paul at Thu 11 Jan 2007 at 05:49:04 EST (-05:00) | comments (0)