17 April 2007

those which are... are simply not.

i wish i could save away this feeling in a tiny glass vial that i would store in a secret place, perhaps on a cluttered shelf if i happened to have a cluttered shelf (the highest shelf and behind the clutter of course), and struggle to find upon remembering how so important and so intense and so explosive are the contents. i just finished watching a movie which made me remember that most of our problems are so trivial. those which seem overwhelming are not. those which cause worries should not. those which are... are simply not. so often i become burdened with the surface and forget the deepest. family. friends. love. happiness. i'm still struggling to find some of the deepest, but the feeling which unfortunately i was not able to capture in a glass vial and which now slowly seeps from me has helped. i think i was able to press just a bit of it into this rice papery page and i'll try my best not to forget.

i know two people who slay. josh and emily. they slay. last weekend i went to montreal for the c.o.m.a.4 electro noise festival and had a blast with terretron and a furry hood coat (what?! with thanks to kate) and an out of body experience with terrorfakt, a sledgehammer, and a bottle of red wine which emily bought for me. and i stayed in their hotel room and they were above.level.destruction. saw deftly, angela, andy, kyle, and ian, the most vicious person on this planet, although bri3n may rival his viciousness. met sonya and squid and kate who all inflict heavy damage. was crushed by cakebuilder and iszoloscope and so many others. and erika with a k, les misfits, should most certainly quit talking and turn around. i wish jen's feet hadn't been hurting her so badly and that alcohol had been able. the haze in ilhan's eyes when i turned around and saw him during terrorfakt and deftly's grinder and the few words with bri3n after the set. amazing.

tactical sekt. [avi video. 15mb.]

tactical sekt. [avi video. 10mb.]

josh is hard. [avi video. 9mb.]

cakebuilder. [avi video. 21mb.]

perfection plastic. [avi video. 13mb.]

most pics didn't come out, unfortunately. these were salvageable.

today i stood in boston's kenmore square for four hours watching and cheering on the runners of the 111th boston marathon. much of the feeling i had in new york came back in a flood. and the looks on the runner's faces as they approached the final mile. they trained for months for this one day and i'm certain this one day made all of those months utterly worthwhile. the day is gigantic and i can't recommend enough experiencing a similar one on either side of the barriers. something which operates on one of those deep levels happens on these days... something which knows nothing of the surface and only of the core... and these are the things which are most important.

runners through kenmore square. fenway park in the background. [avi video. 32mb.]

you don't need to tell me about sentence fragments. i already know. i designed them that way.

posted by paul at Tue 17 Apr 2007 at 02:53:49 EST (-05:00) | comments (0)